a few things i hate

now that the holidays are over, we can all stop pretending to love each other, wipe those grins off our faces, and go back to being the cynical assholes we are the other 364 days out of the year. ;-) ...to keep in the spirit of this i decided i wanted to make a list of a few things i hate!

1. NAME DROPPERS. why do certain people feel the need to put a name brand in front of every other word or talk about people that i dont know and never want to know but that they think will impress me in some way by letting me know they know them. that shit does not impress me. it never will. please stop.

2. EMO ANYTHING. look, im down with flannel. in fact this season i bought quite a few flannel shirts. but i cannot stand people who are "emo" or "hipster" just because they think it is the "cool" thing to do. those who dress/act like that because thats really who they are, i have respect for, but those who are doing it as a front make me want to vomit.

3. COLD WEATHER. years ago when i would play "would you rather" and the question "would you rather have hot or cold weather" came up, i would always choose cold weather. but this year i realized that i cannot stand cold weather. i hate it. i cant wait until cali gets warm again.

4. ASSHOLES. seems like a contradiction that i dislike assholes since according to M.M. I am THE asshole. but whatever, maybe we all dislike what we are. anyways, i am not just talking about any asshole. im talking about the assholes who treat girls like shit. its so enjoyable to be around someone who is nice and treats girls as they should be treated.

5. PACKING. enough said.

6. PEOPLE WHO DONT TAKE PRIDE AND DO NOT TRY TO WORK HARD IN THEIR JOB/CAREER. listen, i really dont care what anyone does for a job/career. you could have a job cleaning the shit off of old people's asses all night and it wouldnt make me view you any differently, but what will is, those workers who do not want to be the best they can be @ their job. mediocrity infuriates me. take some pride in your job, put a smile on ur face. if u dont like ur job, quit and do something else. yes, it really is that easy.

7. HANGOVERS. ive said it before and ill say it again. how the hell can we send people to outerspace, but not have a cure for hangovers? thats straight up artarded.

8. DISRESPECTFULNESS. another thing i cannot stand is when someone is a guest in my home and they do not respect it. while i dont have a job and have not bought anything in my house with my own money, i do work hard for what i have and to have someone disrespect my things is gnarly. it even pisses me off when people do that to other people's homes. it shows a lack of respect for the person.

9. OTHER PEOPLE'S HAIR. other peoples hair makes my skin crawl. especially when it touches my body. but even the sight of it has the potential to make me gag.



SOMETHING I DO LOVE AND AM OBSESSED WITH RIGHT NOW: salmon. raw or cooked. i just cant seem to get enough. yum!

junk from all over

im kinda disappointed with this book... im halfway through and have yet to have the same response with this as i did with "and the elephants boiled in their tanks." sad times.


next on the list:



i had the best dinner tonight. i love the parents. :-)

wtf

what the fuck am i doing?!

3L

last night i had my evidence test. it was hard, really hard. the class is 4 units and it can make or break what happens next year. i hope it makes it and doesnt break it because i really do want to be debt free when i finish school. . . last night i also became a 3L. I officially have one year of school left. that is CRAZY!!!! im so superstitious though; i feel that by saying these things out loud or talking about them too much is going to somehow jinx it all! so with that, i will stop and go do something that is unproductive because i deserve it.

btw, to all my fellow classmates reading this, congratulations on either ending finals or becoming a 3L! :-*

gimme hands

i want something i cant have.
it infuriates me.
im used to getting what i want.
im not even sure i know what the word "no" really means.
maybe god is trying to teach me a lesson.
maybe i cant have it because of some deficiency in myself.
but i probably cant have it because even i am not sure what it is i want.

i want.

Open Letter

I am gonna pull a Candy Spelling and write an open letter. So here it is:

Dear Professional Responsibility,

I cannot even begin to explain the ways that I hate you as there is not enough time in the world to do that. I think that you are so lame because you are so damn ambiguous. Pick a side; things should be in black and white, not gray. But no, you are too much of a pansy to man up and be straightforward. Did I mention how much I loathe you? When I first encountered you, I thought we would have a great time together; that you would some how be able to lift me up, teach me right from wrong, and explain the ways of the legal world. But you have managed to do none of that. After knowing you for about 4 months, which is the longest relationship I have had in quite some time, I want you to know that you taught me nothing. Wait, I take that back, you did manage to teach me that if I stay in California to practice, that I cannot force my clients to have sex with me if they want my representation. You are a good for nothing waste of time. I hate you and I want the hours on Mondays and Wednesday from 1:00-2:15 that I wasted on you back. I feel sorry for all the other people that will have to encounter you after I. I hate you, you piece of shit. Fuck off and die.

Worst Regards,

Rachel

THANKSgiving

It is not everyday that I sit down and reflect on how grateful, thankful, and lucky I am. Don't get me wrong, I know that I am, but I don't think that any of us find the time to really sit down and meditate on it- although we should all probably make the time. . . With the Thanksgiving holiday here and gone, I have had time to reflect on all that I am thankful for and its a lot, from the trivial to the grand.

I wanted to clear out some of my Tivo today so I was watching some old episodes of Nightline. One in particular really made me to sit down and reflect on how lucky and thankful I am. You can watch it here: http://abcnews.go.com/Nightline/

It was the story of a 12 year old boy named Daniel (pronounced Don-yule)who was diagnosed with brain cancer last year. Daniel had surgery on his brain last year. His tumor covered almost a fourth of his brain. Even though they had taken it all out, his chance at survival was slim- they gave him a year. Obviously, he had a very aggressive form of cancer. But there was a small, tiny glimmer of hope available at St. Jude's Hospital in Tennessee. Daniel decided to go for that small hope, but there was no guarantee that the treatment would work and it was almost certain that it wouldn't. The odds were so against Daniel that that his doctor, when being interviewed, said that he could not even bring himself to say out loud what the rate of survival was. Daniel and his family knew this, but you should have seen this little man. He was sooooo extremely positive and courageous. I am 25 years old and have known a lot of people and have yet to encounter anyone, older or younger, that was as courageous as him. When asked by the interviewer how he could stay so positive, Daniel's response was "What are you going to do? I can't change my situation. And I am kind of glad that its me and not some other kid who wouldn't be able to handle the situation." I started balling when I heard this; it touched my soul in a way that I cannot describe. The pure resilience and strength from someone you would not expect to have it was mind blowing! Daniel ended up making it to his 13th birthday and so far (as of three weeks ago) the treatment has worked on him. However, like all kids with cancer, he has to get checked every 3 months for the next year and then every 8 months until he turns 21 to make sure that he is okay. I have never really had a hero besides myself or my parents, but seriously, this little boy is my hero. I strive to have his outlook on life and his strength- with strength like his you can do anything!

Anyways, as I was watching this episode on Daniel, thoughts were running through my head of how trivial the things I worry about are, about how thankful I am that myself, my family, and those that I love have never (knock on wood) had to go through anything like that; that we are all happy and healthy and have food in our bellies and a roof over our head. One of my wishes for myself and for the people that I love are that we can stop to look beyond ourselves each day. I really think the world would be a better place. And my wish for Daniel, even though I know he doesn't know me and that we will never meet is that all of his dreams come true and that he lives a long, happy, and fulfilled life full of happiness and contentment.

grind my gears

this is a rant blog so if you don't like cuss words or rants in general then stop reading NOW!

what the fuck do people NOT get about keeping quiet in a fucking library?! i seriously do not get why every fucking time i come to do work here, and no matter where i sit, some fucktard near me has to fucking have diarrhea of the mouth. maybe their idiot parents never took them to the library when they were a child, maybe they are hard of hearing, but u know what i honestly do not give a fuck what the reason is! most people going to school here are at least 25 years old. shouldnt they know by now that a library is a place to study not a place to yap their chompers about their latest crush- who by the way will never like them because no guy likes a girl who wont shut the fuck up!! i fucking hate IDIOTS who talk in the library. go fuck yourselves assholes!

and this is a little note to all the artards who listen to their music on fucking high, i hope ur hearing goes early for you that way when ur sorry ass is in court you wont be able to hear anything and will never object and make an ass out of urself every fucking time ur pathetic piece of shit excuse of a self enters the courtroom!

and for my favorite asshole of the library, the "security" guards. why dont u worry less about whether or not my drink is in the proper container and stop staring at every female you walk by (heads up asshole, she will NEVER go for you. EVER!) Concentrate a little more on patrolling the garage and lots so that assholes dont scratch or ding peoples cars?! and yes, as a matter of fact, i did open the fucking window because surprise surprise this library is like a fucking oven! there wasnt another person within a mile at the time, do u think it grew arms and opened itself? wait, on second thought, u probably do.

wow, i feel better now.

my favorite list

oprah's favorite show is coming up soon and it inspired me to share with my small group of readers a few of my favorite things at the moment.

1. www.TuckerMax.com
I barely got introduced to this website this week, but already I am completely addicted! Tucker Max is a Duke Law graduate who instead of becoming a lawyer decided to create a website all about himself. Basically, Tucker shares stories about his life. I must warn you that while extremely funny and amusing, the stories can at times be extremely vulgar. But give it a chance.

2. www.goop.com
Goop.com is the brainchild of Gwyneth Paltrow. It started out as weekly newsletter, but I believe they know have archives on the actual site. The categories and topics of the newsletter range from things to do in different cities, things to make in the kitchen, and what to wear. Really cool stuff. I plan on implementing some of the Thanksgiving recipes this year.

3. Midlake
Midlake is a band from the small, shitkicker wearing town of Denton, Texas. I haven't quite figured out who to compare them to, which is one of the reasons I like them so much. They have a cool ep on itunes that is only 2 bucks and well worth it.

4. Starlite Mule
The starlite mule is a delicious drink at one of my favorite restaurants, Starlite. The drink is actually called a Moscow Mule. I have yet to make these at home because I want to buy copper mugs so I can drink it properly, but the recipe looks easy enough. The ingredients needed are: 1 1/2 ounces vodka, wedge of lime, and cold ginger beer. Directions are: Pour the vodka into a copper mug or an iced glass. Squeeze the lime over the vodka, and drop the wedge into the mug. Fill the glass with the ginger beer.

5. Sunflower Seeds
Maybe its because they remind me of simpler times when I would be a the sports plex watching my brother's baseball team, but whatever the case, they are damn good!

6. True Blood
One of the best shows on tv right now. Vampires, seduction, shape shifters, and Louisiana. If you don't have HBO, get it.

7. And the Hippos Boiled in Their Tanks
This is a book written by both Jack Kerouac and William S. Burroughs. Even without the note at the beginning telling you which author wrote which parts, you are able to tell. This book is so good that some nights I lay in bed reading instead of working on my International Trade in Developing Countries article.


I wanted to make this a top ten list, but I really can't think of anything else that is a favorite right now and I don't just want to put things up here for the sake of meeting a quota. . . So enjoy these simple pleasures of mine.

band of horses lyric

"to know me as hardly golden is to know me all wrong"

halfway there.

im halfway to the top of my Everest. i seriously never thought i would see that coming. just last week i was in the kitchen with D nearly crying because i felt so lost and defeated. but now i am beginning to see the top of it and man, it feels good! i can already tell that this week is going to be extremely hard. the paper is due on tuesday and i want to submit at least 2 more drafts before friday so i am going to be very busy, very tired, and very stressed.

speaking of the trio, finals begin in two weeks. i will be done december 15th and will officially be one year away, 2 semesters, away from graduating and becoming a lawyer! i seriously cannot believe that. it doesnt seem real. it so strange to say the words out loud. i dont think, no i know, that i dont give myself enough credit for all of the blood sweat and tears that i do, but it feels so freakin awesome to know that i am doing something and about to enter into a profession that in reality, only a small percentage of this population do. it excites me to know that i am following one of my passions. i think that next semester is going to be amazing. i am really looking forward to two of my four classes- intro to mediation and trial practice. both of them are going to be extremely useful and practical. it would be a awesome if i could get off the waitlist and into wills and trusts.


it is only 10 more days away from thanksgiving. one of my favorite holidays. its going to be a great day spent with friends who have become family and last chance to relax before the hell known as finals begin. . . i know its more than a few days early, but i am so thankful for the life that i have. i am so blessed and so are all the people that i love. i really couldnt ask for more.

11/4/08

ibrush a little too much

I went with B to get an airbrush tan. And it's been five hours and I look like I fell in a puddle of mud and can't afford to shower. WTF!! S , who works there, claims it will fade when u shower after it sets in. If it doesn't I'm wearing a burka to school tomorrow and that will be karmas way of telling me to quit being vain. ;)

I'd post a picture but I wouldn't want y'all to die of laughter

why oh why

am i like a moth to a flame?

woof woof

does anyone know if they sell muzzles for humans?

if so, please let me know because i would like to give some to people as Christmas presents because some people dont know when to shut the fuck up. so if i could just put a muzzle on them whenever they popped off @ the mouth, then maybe that would remind them to shut the fuck up. . . i also figure that will count as my good deed for the year.

im being completely serious.


:-)

its MY space not YOUR space

sometimes i have a tendency to censor myself when i write my blogs. i start to think that i cant talk about certain things or people or situations because what if someone gets mad or what if i dont feel like that next week and its out there. but i just decided that i dont give a fuck what anyone thinks about what i write. if they don't like it then stop reading my blog. i am not going to limit myself. im honest in real life so why not here. . . after all this is MY blog not anyone else's blog! Phew!!

So as of 12:51 am on October 21, 2008 I hereby enact the first amendment of Rachel's constitution which includes but is not limited to freedom of speech and freedom of the press. :-)

KOL Deux

Kings of Leon was freaking AMAZING!! its in the top 5 concerts i've ever been to. it was so much more intense than their show last year @ sdsu amphitheatre. Me and D had excellent seats- 2nd floor balcony smack in the center. I swear that caleb winked and smiled at me more than once ;-)



WAS were amazing and again I can't believe how far they have come in less than 4 months. I love these guys because they are extremely smart and it shows in not only their lyrics but their stage presence as well. Check them OUT!! http://www.wearescientists.com/




It was cool to see the stills too. im sure that they will blow up by this time next year. Canadians are awesome! http://www.myspace.com/thestills



@ the show, the brave couple next to me and D smoked pot and offered it to us but neither of us took it (really!). this offer though did make me realize that i really like the smell of pot. its so aromatic and earthy and potent. they should make it a candle scent! ha ha!

this concert was kinda an eye opener for me because i realized that i have to follow my passion when i am done with school. i always preach to people about following their dream and its about damn time that i listen to my own advice for once!

anyways, enjoy!

KOL

here is whats been going on with me these past two weeks:

my parents came to visit and we had a BLAST!!! they come again on tuesday and that makes me happy :-)

ive been in midterms ever since they left which was about 2 weeks ago. i killed my international trade and developing countries midterm! i havent gotten the grade back yet, but i just know i fucking nailed it! as for evidence and pr- the jury is still out.

i found out that my sister is having a baby boy and this really excites me!! Check out this endearing picture of her husband and the baby. I love it!

finally, i get some relief- tomorrow is the kings of leon, stills, and we are scientists concert. you have NO idea how stoked i am about this. three of my all time favorite bands! its insane because i saw was about three months ago at the casbah which is a really small venue here in san diego and now they are on tour with a huge band playing at a pretty big venue!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HHhhcKxflMY


oh, and i have come to the conclusion that acqua vista (where i live) has gone ghetto. last night i saw my fat ghetto neighbor fucking on his balcony. GROSS!!!! maybe it wont be so bad if the owners dont want to renew my lease. ;-)

trust ur gut

when john mccain announced his running mate, my gut reaction was that this "hockey mom" was bad news. however i realized that i could just be feeling that way because of my disgust for republicans. being the pragmatic person i can sometimes be, i decided that i was going to give this woman a chance. like any good voter, i decided that i would listen to what she had to say and make a decision based on that. . .

when i saw her speak @ the convention, i was not impressed. i was immediately bored. this woman, a potential future vp of the united states of america, managed to lose my interest within 5 minutes of starting her speech. for those of u that know me, u know that its not unusual for me to become bored within 5 minutes of starting anything, but it wasn't even my pre-disposition that caused me to lose focus so quickly, it was the way this woman from alaska (who btw talks like she is from minnesota) had hardly any communication skills. she stood on that stage and made jokes, like that puppet we have sitting in the white house now, instead of explaining her views and opinions on important issues. that to me is making a mockery of what should be an esteemed position. now i understand the argument that not everyone is a good speaker, but honestly, not everyone is running for the 2nd most powerful job position in this country. those that do, in my opinion, need to be better than the rest of us. they need to be smarter than me. they need to have more life experiences than me. because if they dont then they are not qualified.

furthermore, it really annoys me that john mccain would think that women are stupid enough that we would elect any woman. i am all for women to break the glass ceiling and i look forward to the day that we finally do, but im not so ignorant that i believe it doesnt matter if they are qualified or not. his choice to pick her is in fact kinda similar to affirmative action if u think about it.

anyways, the whole point of writing this blog was to post this video of an interview that charlie gibson had with senator palin last night on world news tonight. this woman dodged every major question. it makes me sick to my stomach that someone like her even has the possibility of getting elected, but then again, thats why i love the united states. please watch it.

Does this sound like you???

Its not very often that when doing homework I read about something that interests me. It is less often that I read about something and then want to talk about it later. AND even less often than that that I read something that makes me laugh. . . that all changed tonight when reading PR (that is Professional Responsibility for you lay persons out there):

"Depression is not the only emotional impairment that seems to be more prevalent among lawyers than among the general population. A 1996 Washington study found indicia of anxiety, social alienation and isolation, obsessive-compulsiveness, paranoid ideation, interpersonal sensitivity, phobic anxiety, and hostility in 'alarming' rates among lawyers - I would argue this applies to law students as well ;-) - rates many times the national norms." I wonder though about all the paranoid, anxious, control freak, crazy people that I know that are not in law school; maybe they missed their true calling?

"Lawyers - again I would argue law students as well - appear to be prodigious drinkers. . . The study of Washington lawyers found that 18% were 'problem drinkers." Now this might help explain why nearly every single picture I have from the last year and half was taken either a) at a bar, b) with a drink in hand, or c) in a pool of vomit. . . just kidding about c!

"The extremely limited information that is available indicates that the physical health of lawyers may not be much better than their emotional health. . ." - Now this i LOVE!!!!- --> "In sum, attorneys seem to be an unhealthy lot!!" <--- that had me rolling on the floor laughing my ass off. . . no really it did, i cant find it!!!!!!

This my friends is what I, and my fellow law students, have to look forward to- if these symptoms have not yet hit us. So for all of you not in law school, consider yourself lucky that you will never become part of "an unhealthy lot."

PLEA TO ALL WOMEN

PLEASE STOP CUTTING UR HAIR LIKE THIS:




IT IS SOOOOO CIRCA 1980's and NOT HOT!!

oh and please stop using the word "posh" and "fierce". . . its so played out!

is this a foreshadow of things to come?

spring is almost upon us and with spring comes change. now, ive never been one of those girls that goes ape shit over a man in uniform. in fact, there has only been one man in uniform that i have been attracted to my entire life. furthermore, ive never really been attracted to a red head either, but after seeing photos of prince harry in uniform, i realized that a man in uniform and redheads are kinda sexy. well, on second thought, i better not go too far: a red headed royal in uniform, is kinda sexy. :-)

what i do know. . .

i will be the first to admit that i dont know 100% who i am. but i also the first to admit that i do know some things for certain.

i know that i love my family more than any one of them will ever know.

i know that im tempermental and while i accept that, i still strive to make it better.

i know that i truly do have a good heart and good intentions.

i know that muted purple is one of my favorite colors and that green and blue come in a close second and third.

i know that my life is going to BIG and not in the materialistic way.

i know that when my nieces smile or laugh it warms my soul like nothing else can.

i know that i hope their life, and everyone else's, is 100% better than mine is.

i know that i don't know everything, even though i sometimes act like i do.

i know that i will find the right man when the time is right.

i know that while i might not always be consistent, im consistent in trying.

i know that my relationship with God is getting stronger and it actually kinda excites me.

i know that no matter how bad things might seem, if you take 10 deep breaths or wait 11 days, it won't matter so much anymore.

i know that personal acceptance and growth is the only true way to happiness.

i know that there is no perfect way to end this entry so im just gonna go with it. . . and not think twice. :-)

merriam webster's word of the day

melodramatic.

Pronunciation:
\ˌme-lə-drə-ˈma-tik\
Function:
adjective
Date:
1808

1 : of, relating to, or characteristic of melodrama
2 : appealing to the emotions :